I’ve been living childfree for the past 42 years so you would think I would be a pro at it by now and I was. That is until I actually decided my life would not be complete without a child. Now I don’t know how to move forward but I really am trying. I signed up for a boot camp that starts June 1 and is 4 nights a week. I somehow managed to talk Sunshine and S into signing up also. I hope we will still be friends when the course is complete. I’m trying to lose the 10 lbs of “no” baby weight I’ve gained over the past 18 months. I’ve also planned a trip to Napa, California in mid June with 2 of my girlfriends. We are planning to send 2 days in San Francisco and 2 days in the Napa/Sonoma area. We have rented a convertible and plan to really enjoy ourselves. This use to be my life – working out, running, trips with my girlfriends – I was a free spirit. Somehow this lifestyle which was so much fun seems hard now. I should be 5 months pregnant right now and planning a nursery not working out and going on a girl’s trip. I wonder when my old life will feel comfortable again???
Fake it until you make it, right? Just keep going Peaches.
ReplyDeleteGood for you for getting out there. I need to do the same. Infertility can be such an all-consuming battle. After a while, you start to lose some of those other parts of your life without even realizing that it's happening. Suddenly, you've forgotten about some of the things and the people that used to make you happiest because you're so busy focusing on trying to get pregnant. At least, that's how it's been for me. I think once you start to reinvest in those things that made you happy before, they'll start to feel more comfortable again.
ReplyDeleteYou never will get over it, but life goes on and you learn how to live without a child. I'm glad you are moving forward, but don't do to much running it is bad for the knees. Dad
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