I can't help but think why did God bless this young couple with a baby when they had planned to discard it like a bundle of trash? Where is my baby? Why won't God bless me with a baby? This has been such a rough 2.9 years and when I hear about something so henious as putting a tiny newborn in a storm drain without a second thought I just can't help but wonder why God would allow this. I know we all have free will and that couple will have to answer to God for their actions but why them? When I heard this story on the news I could feel my heart start harden towards God. I'm angry and bitter and discouraged and disappointed and the list goes on and on.
I want God to bless me and lift this pain from my broken heart. I want to believe in miracles and prayer. I want to be a mother!